In a previous post I said I was letting things go more and more ~ not holding onto bad feelings. It takes a lot of energy to hold onto things. I'm applying this at work in a big way. I'm trying not to let things get to me, but I spend so much time there and the consistency of things that annoy me just builds and builds. The biggest thing is the people I work with. It just amazes me how rude and inconsiderate people can be. How can there be so many of these people? I really need to get over this amazement at some point....that would help a lot. But I still scratch my head over this. I've learned that I just need to realize they are not going to miraculously change. I guess I had kept thinking they would.
Back in mid December I got everyone I work closely with a small gift for Christmas. I wrapped them and handmade gift tags. I'd planned to give them out at our last meeting 3 days prior to the holiday break. As the day approached, the meeting was cancelled. I got the gifts out and was going to pass them out. Something stopped me. I sat there and asked myself *WHY* I had got them anything in the first place? I hardly like any of these people! But you know, 'tis the season, spirit of giving, blah, blah, blah. However, I didn't hand them out. I put the gifts back in my desk and held off. The next day I thought about handing them out again, but didn't.
I took the gifts home that night.
The lesson I learned from doing this so many times in the past was, these people have displayed actions that show me they don't deserve this from me. And that's that.
I'm letting go of the BS from the past and keeping a distance. I work with them....we're not friends. I'm polite and still interact with everyone in group situations, but I've dropped the day to day chit chat and that kind of thing. It's so much easier and I'm happier :)