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Wednesday, June 09, 2010

I have a feeling this is a worthless attempt to explain a feeling, but I'm going to try.

There are times when...for lack of better soul is transported to another time. Usually the past. It's trigged by different things. Sometimes music, sometimes a photo or a place, sometimes a scent in the air. Today it was a song. I usually get a very vivid image in my head. It's like I'm there. I can feel the moment physically. And the weird thing is, sometimes it isn't an actual memory of something that happened, but rather a feeling. Like I am remembering a feeling but the vision I have isn't an actual moment that happened. It's just something conjured up to fit the feeling I am recalling. The feeling I'm having today is a recurring one. It's winter. I'm going home for Christmas. Everyone is there and the feeling is happy. A warm feeling. Joyful. These are old feelings for sure. I long to feel them again, but I'm pretty sure they will only be felt in memories like this one I'm having now. Things change and you can't relive the past. But for now I am on my way to Christmas....the air is cool and the bright lights sparkle. I am happy....because, after all, it was the most wonderful time of the year.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I can't explain it either, but I know exactly what you mean. I feel that way when I am walking at night and its a full moon and kinda chilly and breezy, maybe a few crispy leaves blowing around. It reminds me of October around Halloween and I am transported back to when I was a kid, and the feeling of excitement and being carefree. Not an exact memory, just the feeling. Love it.